Everything’s not OK.
The life I’m leading.
The job I’m enduring.
The decisions I’m making.
The things I’m saying.
The emotions I’m feeling.
I have been frivolous. I need God. I’ve always needed Him, but I feel guilty only remembering Him because of what I’m going through right now. I’m having bouts of depression again, and I am terrified of the fact that I am getting used to having my personal evils breathing down on my neck. They feed on my sadness. They play on my idle mind. They drag me away from God.
I need this time to go back to the Lord Jesus Christ. All He does is wait for me. Embarrassed and shamed, I feel like I don’t deserve salvation. But He wants me to take it; that’s what He died for. So, I’m going to take this precious opportunity to come back to the arms of who so unconditionally loves me, and I don’t ever want to let go again.
